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From 玉魄 (Letter)

I am a female high school student from China. I wrote this article with my existing English, hopefully there is no wrong grammar and it will be seen by you.

I faced a different subiect in my freshman ear. What is worth explaining is that in the Chinese college entrance examination(中国高考),Chinese(语文),math(数学),and English (英语) are the subjects that must be examined. Students shouldchoose three of their favourite or best subjects in Physics (物理学),chemistry (化学),biology(生物),politics (政治学),history (历史学)and geography (地理学) to test them ,to get better grades in the college entrance examination.In doing so students can continue to be satisfied with their enthusiasm for learning.

It is worth intorducing that we call students who choose Physics,chemistry and biology students for science student(理科生),and those who choose politics,history andgeography students for liberal art students(文科生),and those who choose othercombinations of liber arts and science students(文理结合生).

Im not good at science(理科),but Iim good at liberal arts and biology(文科),haha. Okey, at that time,my boyfriend chose to become a science student.He is very talented science student who is very good at science and often achieves remarkable results. Finaly,I choose politics,history and biology.I chose to become a liber arts and science student.

One day,I with my boyfriend ,we talked about each other’s choices,he was proud and faithful to his choice ,and he mocked me for choosing two liberal arts. His words were full of malice against liberal arts students He threats that the Chinese market need more science students than liberal arts students.I didn’t immediately refute him, because Chinese society does favor scienciety does favor science students and needs them more,and the social value they can create is higher,but I am still sad.I don’t score well in math but he often comes first in math. He laughed at me,but comforted me land paid attention to what he said,| was the only one who could improve your math.” he said I smiled and fell into his arms.I felt sad and complicated.I didn’t want to lose him.

In the rest of my life, my math performance made a little progress under his quidance,but my personal freedom was losing step by step. No only was I no longer able to wear the beautiful clothes or dress I love, but he always stressed that I was fat and fat when we talked to me in order to stop me wearing them,describing my waist as I was so sad that he was the only one who could accept me.I felt inferior and fell in to a wild diet and lost weight.I used to run after school at myschool during that time. The evening study was overat 10p.m. I was also ruing alone in the school playground.

Not only that,I also lose my normal interpersonal relationship,and he hated that I talked to anyone but himself. The boys in my classroom hid form me, and the girls in my classroom talked about me behine my back. The teachers ignored me because my grades.I was stuck in a world wtih my boyfriend alone,and I had no self.I was also forced to give up my love of skateboarding,which is very obvious and rare in China.I’m good at skateboarding,and I’ve found a bunch of like-minded girls because of it.After that ,they all left me. My boyfriend,his reason was that if I continued to skateboard,he would tear apart the people who looked at me.

My peartnts and teachers heard that my relationship with him was very disappointed with me. Puppy love was not allow in Chinese high school.

He always had some strange reasons to prove I wasn’t loyal to him,that I didn’t love him. Each time too,he used a tone of earnes thess that slowly began to make me feel that I had done something wrong.I didn’t worn at all it is because he let me being Forced to use his world to watch my action,it will be like I did something wrong.I was more and more afraid of disobeying his order. I gradually obeyed him. The cheerful, optimistic and individual I used to be disappeared without trace,and I often felt that I could not do anything well. To satisfy his desire to posses me, he tried me over and over again,to destroy me,to test how much I love him. The obedience test he applied to me, like Pavlov’s dogs, took away my menatal autonomy by means of a”punishment mechanism”

One day it dawned on me.I cut all ties with him,immediately broke up,and threw away everything that was related to him.After sorting it all out,I clecided to reinvent myeslf. First,I read all of the math books to understand before doing the exercise book.At the same time ‚I sorting out the notesof other subjects,sorting out the knowledge and mistakes.God is my witness,when I do these my heart is full of happiness and confidence in their own! I proved I didn’t need his help.After this in a test,I improved a lot of places,squeezed the top of the results.I don’t care if my teachers and classmates have a new opinion of me but I know that I need to be well perpared before the next opportunity comes.

I have also become less anxious about my body and now manage it through proper exercise and diet.I also started skateboarding again.I built askateboarding club with more and more people.I told girls who were curious about how to skateboard,”Girls can do anything they want”Except what we’re not allowed to do by law,of course.

I tell you this fact and hope to get your approval,hope you tell more girls,because most of them don’t have the courage to remake themselves, they deserve better!!! I feel no shame for falling love with him,only pity for being deceived by him.I will strive to complete my studies, improve my quality,expand my knowledge, and continue to follow vol a modest attitude and a studions attitude.

-玉魄